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"picking through the rubble"


picking through the rubble in silence

these accidents were planned out pretty well

mumbling to myself in a new language

just to remember pieces of the old

pulling out wires and iron

and building magnets with switches 

just trying to find the direction 

we once knew as north

just pacing back and forth


i stumbled and took a breath

remembered when i was a kid

and knew that i only ...

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Sunday Music Post - "Concrete/Keep Walking"

I'm getting ready to record a record at the end of this month, and as part of the prep, I'm trying to revisit some of the songs from the past year with just a guitar and my voice, trying to break them down to their simplest elements.

This is one of the first goes... still a work in progress and my guitar playing is pretty rusty (and not ...

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New Zealand

Last week I had the unique opportunity to spend a week in New Zealand as an invited guest. In January, the country's captial city, Wellington, put a call out to the tech community saying they had a shortage of tech workers and wanted to recruit from the worlds best. They were opening a call for anyone to apply and the top 100 applicants would be given a free trip ...

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My mother

I haven't felt like I could put anything new here until I say something about my mother.  My mother died on March 5th, unexpectedly and not... like most things about my mother, its complicated.  Our relationship was complicated too, especially in these last years.  She was a huge part of my mental and emotional life and my identity for so many years and now I'm trying to make ...

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Going Home

Its my last morning in Mbour.  There are so many things I haven't done.  I'm traveling a lot differently than I used to.  Once upon a time, even on a work trip, I would spend a good deal of time in a new place wandering alone, seeing the sites, trying to understand what the people are like.  This was a very limited and limiting process... the problem was ...

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